- Sleep - fell asleep last night with no Ativan! Didn't stay asleep, but good step forward.
- Finding the small piece of greenie that is in my purse. This was the greenie that I brought to Tboz in the hospital and held while she chewed it. I didn't let her have the last bit because I was afraid she would choke. She used to hold them with her little paws. She loved greenies. It was her favorite part of the day to get to enjoy the greenie.
- Oz, the big sheep/husky dog next door. Tboz loved Oz. She would visit Oz after peeing on the mailbox. Oz was the only dog Tboz liked. And they were so cute together. She would go sniff his nose and then run off like a puppy. The day before Tboz had to be let go, I took her over to see Oz and held her and bent down to let him sniff her and her him. To say goodbye. Shortly after, when we were at home, she perked up. I think it was Oz.
- Oz being home and outside last night. Last night I came home and was wishing for doggie companionship so much. I looked over to see if Oz was out and I didn't see him. I went down to the mailbox and heard his whimper and saw him in the shadows. Yay! I went over and just pet him and pet him and pet him and told him what a good dog he was and talked about missing Tboz. It was nice.
- My pal Christine. She is my spinning and yoga instructor and she always makes me feel calm and capable. Lately, OK just twice, I have been doing spinning and then yoga on Tuesdays. It really helps escape for 2 or so hours and I usually feel so much better.
- Running into this other lady at work who is a 12 year survivor. I was given her name by another coworker and called her right when I was diagnosed. She was so helpful and maybe the only person I talked to who was a survivor before my surgery. She is flat like me and I think about her telling me the benefits of this almost every day. She was not supposed to live, and she has lived for 12 years and counting. She is a survivor. I finally met her in person yesterday and she had lots to say about perspective. She also said I was still very new at this and not to expect so much. She also advised me to try and separate all the bad things that have happened to me to single events - not to say all these bad things happened to me! But to say my dog died and I will need to grieve her. This is separate from my breast cancer.
- Plans to see the Rockettes Christmas Spectacular thing with pal Allison this weekend.
- When cold outside and after 2 hours of exercise, the heat blowing on my face while driving with the windows down or top off
- My dad, for sending me a very nice email and a book (All Dogs go to Heaven) when Tboz was let go
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Thirty Days of Thankful - Day 7
Today I am thankful for:
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